.::UndiscOvered::.

.post sedih.

2012-01-12T18:28:00.002+02:00

Berita kematian seorang sahabat seperjuangan di Mrsm KT disambut dengan rasa hiba yang teramat. Imbasan masa gembira bersama arwah berulang-tayang di minda. Arwah memang seorang yang baik, itu tidak boleh dinafikan. Sebagai seorang yang berjawatan tinggi dahulunya, iaitu merangkap majlis perwakilan pelajar (MPP),exco multimedia, beliau sangat merendah diri. Perkenalan 2 tahun kami itu tidak akan dilupakan untuk selama-lamanya.

Allahyarham Azam Wahi Affendi Ariffin dan adiknya, semoga kalian dicucuri rahmat.Innalillah.Setiap yang datang pasti kembali kepada-Nya. Saya pun tidak terkecuali, hanya menunggu masa.

______________________________________________________________

lpas dpt tahu berita ni kol 3ptg td, mmg btol2 membuka minda ak, kalaolah ak ditempat arwah, agak2 kat mane la tempat ak. pahala dah cukup ke dkumpul?nk timbang nanti berat belah mane?what have i done to my religion?race?country?NADA~slama nk dkt 23tahun ak idup ni, ape yg dah ak berbakti pada mamaku?papaku?keluargaku?pergaulanku bagaimana pula?mate tu da tundukkan ke blm?hati bersih ke?iman camne?agak2 smua solat dan puase ak diterima tak?mulut ak ni, jage tak?al-quran?da paham smua mskd dh?

...................*sigh*

in a nut shell, ajal bleyh datang bile2 mase je~mane tahu kot2 dan2 je click 'publish', tuhan nk tarik nyawa ak ke.kite tak tahu bile. ape yang boleh kite lakukan then?beribadat la byk2, mmg dunia kita duduk skarang ni sementara je. slagi mane bleyh kumpul pahala, kumpul la. dunia kat sane nanti for eternity babe~jangan menyesal.

lets aim for the eternal life, what say you?

.oohoooiii.gaya m.daud kilau.

2012-01-08T18:38:00.000+02:00

post pendek

first, congratz ezani~pemenang masterchef malaysia 1st season

da la cantek, doktor gigi, pandai msk plak tu.

tp post ni bukan tuk awk, sorry

td blogwalking ke andy's <<click here

terbace la latest post dye pasal 'airmata zizan tumpah kerana juliana evans'

ouh tidak zizan

bukankah lbh beik kalau aimatamu jatuh kerana siti hajar?

next topic

esok, exam round. chest division.exam ni aku tak gerun sgt sbb

.............

MCQ

so kl tak tahu, boleyhlah tembak menembak tambah plak ak rase ak ni sharpshooter (=.=')

yg aku gerunnye

exam final sem 7 this 19th january

da la kene cover cardio, chest and haematology.kene cover satu hal, tp ak macam tak tahu ape2 spnjang masuk sem 7 ni~dashat kan~everytime masuk sem baru, berazam pada diri sndiri nk berubah. tp last2 still pada takuk y same jugak.sedeyhkn. da cube~menjadi satu minggu je

damn u, entertainment world

*haa, ni la dye manusia skarang, salah diri sndiri, tp last2 nak blame manusia jugak*

smalam layan Music Bank yg latest pnye, 6th january, asal ramai gile boyband baru ni?kacakk!!!*drooling* tp rasenye skarang bukan generation ak kowt, generation ak mcm SUPER JUNIOR, DBSK, SS501~rasenye INFINITE pon still in my generation kowt

ouh ouh. n pg td tgk Gag Concert. ad slot baru Reali-T~kelakaaarrr~~~bg sape2 yang da terperangkap dlm Hallyu Wave tp tak tgk Gagmen ni~korang tersangatla p.o.n.d.a.n

notabulukaki: banyakla post pendek kan~berjela2~sekian~

notabulukakipanjang2 : pnh dgr lagu Maksim Mrvica - Croatian Rhapsody? best gile. ntah knape baru skarang ak dgr. sekarang padan muke ak br nk mencari2 music score tuk lagu ni~tak kire tak kire winter break ni nk mein lagu ni hari2. kalo nk dgr mcm mane bunyik lagu ni~sile la pg ke blog ak yg sbnar2nye - sini
arigatou gozaimasu

.hello 2012.

2012-01-06T18:03:00.002+02:00

HELLO 2012~
first and foremost, alhamdulillah.im still breathing up to these days. Allah is giving me chances to collect all those ibadah and amal jariyah as much as i can~so that, nanti bile ditimbang , harap2 beratlah belah kebaikan~insyaAllah.

lets get down to business, shall we?

so whats ur new year's resolutions?i already have mine since the start of 1st muharram 1433~but never point 'em out to others. i thought u should be the first one to know it,am talking to my bloggy~~~*lebong nok mati, padaha baghu nk bwat.i have to to this too since my sis already posted up her resolutions*~~

2012 New Year's Resolutions

istiqamah dlm mengerjakan ibadat dan amal jariah
mumtaz for sem 7 and sem 8
re-learn how to read scores perfectly
a play-by-ear pianist
re-learn how to speak japanese fluently
berbakti pada mama n papa
be a good daughter and sister
save money
UK's trip this summer
again....save money
ipad 3
mengolah seni photography
a versatile cook *pastry, savoury,desserts etc.*
jambox by jawbone
membuka sedikit ruang hati?*~~gatal much?~~im turning into 23, what do u expect?
a healthier body.*can i weigh 49kg please?*
last but not least : active in blogging

.MaseKecik.

2011-10-15T06:43:00.003+02:00

Mase kecik, suke gile mein bende ni, kalo pg kedai runcit nampak bendalah ni, mst kene beli, pompuan gile an. best kowt mein. ye la, duit xde, bleyh bajet ad byk accessories dgn mein ni la~smua bende ad~byk gown2 cantik, purse, jewellery etc

Satu lagi,

Ingat tak?Ingat tak?hahahah~kol6 ptg wajib duk dpn tv~tp skarang da xde da cito cantonese kol6~haihh~Revolution happens~skang kan dunia K-pop~dorang pon da besar dh~haha~

.未来.

2011-10-14T07:16:00.001+02:00

again, i left you guys with no notice at all
i know, shame on me
if you followed my blog since years ago, i had once said that i'll stop writing when theres no love anymore

well,
the love is fading
or how i wish it could fade away, but i cant
not until you find ur love

i can see Your plan now, O'Dear Allah
You've been protecting me up until now and i much appreciate You for this
You've been saving me from falling into vices or any moral weaknesses
and for that, im overwhelming with gratitude.
so, im keeping myself for the One and keep trying.
i just wish You make this feeling for him go away, please

大丈夫だよ
見上げれば　もう
大丈夫　ほら
七色の橋
やっと
同じ空の下で　笑えるね

It’ll be okay, just look up
It’s okay, do you see the rainbow bridge?
We can finally smile beneath the same sky

ps : ouh ouh, you guys know how when i sad, i play loud musics and play the keyboard*no malaysia no piano*, but somehow Husni borrowed it. and now im left with this hurtful feeling without getting to let it out. baby please come back to mommy please.

.Travel Kit in Black - Giveaway Open Worldwide!.

2011-09-09T03:57:00.000+02:00

and NO its not mine to giveaway. im joining the contest~this time its from Sahrish's Beauty Advice

recently cik sunnymiso seemed to be active in getting free things. and i thought, 'what the hell, i might as well join the contest since its not that hard' weE~

u guys can also participate, or not~ =) just click the pic below or simply click the site above~ =) =)

*CLICK ME*

.ihatewhen.

2011-09-08T09:08:00.000+02:00

having dslr is amazing, but the only problem is, the maintenance is so damn high~ you see,my dearest cam is broken *something about Err 99-shutter prob and CF cannot be formatted* and im in kelantan now. i dont think theres any canon centre for cam here, theres for printers only. my bro's friend was going to KL from KB, so my bro asked him for a favor. being a really nice guy, Palli *his name* said OK.

.
..
...
....

yesterday, canon centre sent a msg telling the cost of the repair
its RM1076!

dannggg it~~

*only have my cam case pic*

.Sigma's.

2011-09-02T09:52:00.000+02:00

TADAA!!there's another contest too!!

click HERE
this one is for buffer!it would be so cool if i can have it!

.Sigma Eyeshadow Palette Giveaway.

2011-09-02T09:37:00.000+02:00

up until now i've been only using MAC products, but then this friend of mine posted in her blog about joining a giveaway contest and the prize will be Sigma's Eyeshadow Palette. so am thinking of joining it to. Who knows i may fall in love with this brand =)

to those who wanna join this giveaway too, simply click this HERE

.sorry.

2011-08-13T09:05:00.001+02:00

♪Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry, naega naega naega meonjeo♫

dear bloggie,
first of all, let me just apologize to you for not updating you as much as when i had lectures on-going or exams. its ironic isn't it? when im at the busiest point of my life, i was still able to update you, but when i have nothing to do, i found it hard to even open any blogs.maybe because i have other exciting things to do beside talking rubbish as i usually do?

what kind of exciting things u ask?

Animes of course!!Bwahahaha~if not, i'll be probably playing piano. or watch movies or .....

well, thats all the stuffs i do now.

just so u know, its nearly a month now~but we still haven't got our result yet~our semester 6 result~its killing me inside u know~everything i do, i'll do it guiltily.*long sigh*

palli palli palli!!!!

.self-consolation.

2011-08-05T05:58:00.001+02:00

love someone who loves you. as simple as that. theres no point if you love someone one-sidedly. you'll get hurt eventually.

no more after this one. imma lay low now and wait-only.

he'll come. Says who?says Allah s.w.t.

☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
.via iphone.

.Pengalaman Pertama BerRamadhan Di Mesir.

2011-08-01T04:39:00.004+02:00

dah tiga tahun duduk kat mesir ni pon, tak penah2 dapat peluang berpuasa di sini. Mane taknye, every year pon kalu bleyh nak beraye kat malaysia dengan family je kan. ~~anak manja.bluekk.~~

tapi tidak tahun ini!!tahun ini saya bertekad untuk merasa berpuasa di egypt ni!~~*padahal sbb nak tunggu result kluar dlu baru bleyh nak balik dgn tenang*~~

tahun-tahun lepas pon ade jugak dgr budak2 yang xblk beraye cakap puasa kat sini havoc~meriah~happening. peliklah jugak, sbb kalau kat malaysia, hari raya lah hari yang paling meriah kan. well, smua dah terjawab semalam.

one word je yg mampu diungkap. AWESOME!!

sangat berlainan di malaysia, kat sini, mereka menyambut kedatangan ramadhan dgn meriah sgt, lagi meriah dari mereka sambut syawal. setiap kali kluar rumah, nmpk dorang hias rumah dorang, setiap kali tu la sebak didada ni, alangkah gembiranye Rasulullah kalau Beliau masih hidup dan dpt melihat betape bersungguhnye mereka2 ni pada bulan yang mulia ni.

note that, smua ni disaksikan oleh mataku semalam, semalam mane start puase lg tapi dh bleh nampak berpuluh2 rumah dihiasi dgn lampu lip-lap-lip-lap. sgt someyl, seriously*~~rase cam nk snap2 ngan slr je bagi korang tgk tapi apakan daya, saya keluar rumah sekali sehari je tuk solat tarawih, takkan nk bwk camera besar gabak tu kowt~~. selain rumah dorang, every street pon digantung fanus-fanus~ape itu fanus?

*ni hah bendalah fanus tu*

lbh kurang pelita la

nampak2?okay, ni satu kan?bayangkan ad berpuluh2 benda ni menyinari setiap jalan kat sini!~selain rumah, masjid2 pon lagi bercahaya berbanding bulan2 lain. semalam 1st tarawih, alhamdulillah dibuka hati oleh-Nya tuk menyertai mereka2 yang lain menunaikan solat tarawih berjemaah, Imam Mesir ni the best la, bile dorang bace Al-Fatihah pon boleyh bwat org menangis dgn taranum yang menyentuh hati tu. malam ni start surah Al-Baqarah =) =) kebanyakan masjid kat sini, bwat 8 rakaat tarawih dan witir 3 rakaat.

setakat ni je dlu, arini da start pose, i'll be updating for more =) *budak2 ni ckp org arab suke bersedekah makanan bulan2 puase ni. kite tunggu je la dari baba rumah ni*HAHA. tapi saya hanya sempat berpuasa disini selama 10 hari je~ =( 10 hari lagi insyaAllah di Mekah dan Madinah, bakinya berpuasa di Malaysia dan dalam kapal terbang =)

ps : di kesempatan ini, ingin saya menyusun 10 jari-jemari ~~runcingku~~ ini, memohon ampun kat korang2 smua. jika ada terkasar bahase atau terbuat korang terasa. ketahuilah sesungguhnya saya tidak sengaja.bwahahhahahaha~SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK!!manfaatkan hari2 ramadhan anda dgn sebaik2nya. maksud berpuasa tu bukan menahan diri dari makan dan minum je, silelah tahan diri anda dr melihat, bercakap bende mengarut, jaga hati korang, bykkan sedekah, beristighfar, mengaji *ni bukan tuk korang je, ni peringatan tuk diri saya juga* =)

sekian, terima kasih.

.b-e-a-utiful.

2011-07-29T03:55:00.000+02:00

I'm left to wonder will I ever fall in love

And where is he now

I wanna be blown away

I wanna be swept off my feet

I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe

I wanna be lost in love

I wanna be your dream come true

I wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you

Just call me beautiful, Call me b-e-a-utiful

Every where I look people holding hands

When am I gonna get my chance at love

My chance at love

Cuz she's with him, I'm still hurting

Try to pretend but it's not working

I just wanna be where they are

My heart is waiting for your love

My hand is waiting for your touch

.Wordless Wednesday.

2011-07-27T04:04:00.000+02:00

.its an ice-cream waffle.

.flight.

2011-07-25T11:45:00.001+02:00

so, i just issued my ticket back to malaysia.

yup.21st august!! beware malaysia.im coming home!!!

but i'll be transiting in bahrain first for 2hrs. ok a tu.

asal baru beli tcket?bkn da lame ke abis exam?

im going to another place 1st for 10days. please pray for me?imma update to u guys*if there any readers at all* =)

ciao
☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
.via iphone.

.Ke'cliché'an Korean Drama.

2011-07-24T18:04:00.004+02:00

.dgn ini, genaplah seminggu final exam ak abis, tp da rasa macam berkurun lamenye abis.

daily routines

.singing.

.piano.

-watching-

.futurama.the big bang theory. One Piece. Naruto. other animes. movies.

and

Korean Drama*this is the only time i manage to watch k-drama dr 1st ep smpai last ep, NONSTOP

i love the handsome actors, beautiful actresses, picturesque panoramas of Korea.

BUT* theres always a but*

i HATE the typicalness of EVERY korean dramas. dont believe me?lets us view one by one

1. namja/laki kacak nak mati kalau dye pg mane2, smua pompuan akan tengok dye tak berkedip2 mate seko2, dr keluarga berada dan bakal/dah mewarisi business keluarga

2.yeoja/pompuan cantik/so-so dr keluarga sederhana@miskin, keje xseberapa. tapi unique+funny2 sket

3. pompuan tu trjumpe ngan laki tu accidentally, terlanggar ke, air tumpah ke, ape ke.

4. laki kl pg mane2 msti ad bodyguards yg ramai2 and sombong sket~

5. YG PASTINYE BUKAN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT, in facts, hero n heroin abhor each other mule2 cite, tak bleyh terselisih sket, msti nk gaduh mulut.

6. mule same2 suke, tp mak ataw family laki msti xsuke pompuan tu sbb XSEKUFU katenye.

7. mesti ad orang ketiga~!dan selalunye msti br blk dr oversea.mungkin ad org suke kat hero~ataw mungkin ad org suke kat heroine. dan mungkin kedua2nya sekali

8. br je start kapel, byk la halangan dtg kat dorang

9. ouh!ouh!main actor@actress mesti ad chingu/kawan yg rapat.

10.org ketiga tu akan cube segale2nye tuk pisahkn hero and heroine tapi last2 mengalah dgn pelakon utama dan sbb tak tahan sgt, org ketiga tu msti lari luar negara~

11. hero sanggup tinggalkn kemewahan tuk bersama heroine tp last2 blk smula ke family sbb family xsanggup berpisah

12. happy ending

bosan. kill me already.im just gonna stick to kpop only from now on~occasionally je tgk drama.

*name dye ni Mario Maurer, thai actor. ape motive ak letak gmbr dye?xde motive~saje. sbb dye ensem~*

sekian terima kasih

.wordless wednesday.

2011-07-20T01:19:00.001+02:00

☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
.via iphone.

.Malaikatmu Tersentuh Hati.

2011-07-19T13:06:00.002+02:00

Suatu hari seorang bayi siap untuk dilahirkan ke dunia...Dia bertanya kepada Tuhan : ' Para malaikat disini
mengatakan bahawa besok Engkau akan mengirimkan saya kedunia, tetapi bagaimana cara saya hidup disana; saya begitu kecil dan lemah ?'

Dan Tuhan menjawab: 'Aku telah memilih satu malaikat untukmu. Ia akan menjaga dan mengasihimu .' Bayi bertanya lagi: 'Tetapi disini; didalam syurga ini, apa yang saya lakukan hanyalah bernyanyi, bermain dan
tertawa...Inikan sudah cukup bagi saya untuk berbahagia.'

'Malaikatmu akan bernyanyi dan tersenyum untukmu setiaphari. Dan kamu akan merasakan kehangatan cintanya dan menjadi lebih berbahagia'

'Dan bagaimana bisa saya mengerti disaat orang-orang berbicara kepada saya jika saya tidak mengerti bahasa mereka ?'

'Malaikatmu akan berbicara kepadamu dengan bahasa yang paling indah yang pernah kamu dengar; dan dengan penuh kesabaran dan perhatian. Dia akan mengajar kepadamu cara berbicara.'

'Dan apa yang akan saya lakukan saat saya ingin berbicara kepadaMu ?'

'Malaikatmu akan mengajarkan bagaimana cara kamu berdoa'

'Saya mendengar bahawa di Bumi banyak orang jahat. Siapa yang akan melindungi saya ?

'Malaikatmu akan melindungimu; walaupun hal tersebut mungkin akan mengancam jiwanya'

'Tapi, saya pasti akan merasa sedih kerana tidak melihatMu lagi'

'Malaikatmu akan menceritakan kepadamu tentang Aku, dan akan mengajarkan bagaimana agar kamu bisa kembali kepadaKu; walaupun sesungguhnya Aku akan sentiasa disisimu'

Disaat itu, Syurga begitu tenang dan heningnya sehingga suara dari Bumi dapat terdengar, dan sang bayi bertanya perlahan 'Tuhan, jika saya harus pergi sekarang, bisakah Kamu memberitahuku nama malaikat tersebut ?' 'Kamu akan memanggil malaikatmu itu: 'IBU '

Ingatlah sentiasa kasih sayang dan pengorbanan ibu. Berbakti, berdoa dan cintailah dia sepanjang masa.....
Dialah sesatunya harta yang tiada galang gantinya dunia akhirat....

Dan untuk para ibu, ingatlah kisah ini dikala kamu hilang sabar dengan karenah anak-anak yang sedang
membesar...sesungguh nya Syurga itu dibawah telapak kakimu...

Sucikanlah 4 hal dengan 4 perkara :

1) Wajahmu dengan linangan air mata keinsafan,
2) Lidahmu basah dengan berzikir kepada Penciptamu,
3) Hatimu takut dan gementar kepada kehebatan Rabbmu, dan dosa-dosa yang silam
4) Di sulami dengan taubat kepada Dzat yang Memiliki mu.'

credits : paapaada

2011-07-18T14:24:00.001+02:00

i have this thing of feeling discontent in my heart. its the exams~ *sigh* at first i was so happy i finished my exam but today, everything is coming back to me now, of how bad i was doing during MCQs, essays and OSCEs. i just wanna pass this sem 6 and straight away go to sem 7~ this miniscule feeling of waiting and not knowing my result is killing me.

my way of living the life after exam is not very admirable too.

i need to call home now. argh~home~thats a thing too~my mom always forget to charge her phone.

.Wordless Wednesday.

2011-07-12T23:12:00.004+02:00

.im not quite sure how to use this new dashboard =P.

♥turkiye

.beginilah.

2011-07-12T04:01:00.001+02:00

beginilah nasibku. but until today,i never even once regret amek medic =)

sumpah sy bkn org jenis x organize.bwahaha.

korang : 'eleh, tpu la tu..tgk gmbr bwh ni pon da taw da!'

korang ape taw, try tny buku ape kat mane..smua pon ak taw what is where.

btw, have an essay exam today at 0130.pray for me and all my friends.'la sahla illa ma ja3ltahu sahla.'

☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
.via iphone.

.Wordless Wednesday.

2011-07-06T11:55:00.001+02:00

from now on i'll be uploading 2 pics for wordless wednesday. one from my own and another one is NOT from my own

ps : i know i just said i will not be updating you, but ur just so tempting. enough with the nagging, u like it right?

.imsorry?.

2011-07-05T18:31:00.001+02:00

i'll be off for 2 weeks now. my final exam is just around the corner, so am not updating u oh my dear bloggie*not that anyone cares* but yeah, i MUST really start struggling now.

i have these much to study and i have less than 5 days. >10 giant books in < 5 days and am not freaking kidding. toodles cyber world.please miss me! (´･_･`)

さよなら。

☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
.via iphone.

.And that's why Muslim girls cover their body and hair.

2011-07-02T17:47:00.000+02:00

A non-Muslim guy asked a Muslim: Why do your girls cover up their body and hair?

The Muslim guy smiled and got two sweets, he opened the first one and kept the other one closed.

He threw them both on the dusty floor and asked the non-Muslim: If I asked you to take one of the sweets which one u will choose?

The non-Muslim replied: The covered one.

Then the Muslim said that’s how we treat and see our women.

.BilaNikmatDuniaMenjelang.

2011-07-01T11:47:00.001+02:00

Dia telah berdiri

Cuba berlari

Tak pernah dia jelang

Hidup yang inginkan

Kilau hari-hari

Dan birunya langit

Terhapus rasa indah

Terpejam oleh lelah

Dalam lelahnya mata

Nikmat dunia menjelma

Sejenak dia berharap

Malam tanpa batas

Bunda s'lalu tanamkan

Jangan pernah menyerah

Jalani dan panjatkan

Kelak syukur kau ucapkan pada diri Nya

Kumohonkan

.Wordless Wednesday.

2011-06-28T21:13:00.000+02:00

.ASAL?.

2011-06-28T20:33:00.000+02:00

lpas satu satu bwat hal~nuffnang bwat hal, skarang followers nye widget plak bwat hal!knape kosong je ni?kenape knape?haihhh!

.pfft.

2011-06-23T22:41:00.003+02:00

pst

psst

psstttttttt

kamu!

ye kamu!

sini datang kejap!

*whispering*

did you know

Did you knowan ostrich's eye is bigger than it's brain?BWAHAHA~igt x igt x iklan ni?someyl kan budak tu~motif sbenar post ini adalah untuk menyatakan ketidakpuasan ati dkt nuffnang~Knape da 3taun bwat blog tp earnings still duk 30sen jek?apekah?salah apekah ak ini?bukan satu ads plak tu~tp 2!!haih~benci la~

.Papa.

2011-06-19T01:27:00.002+02:00

Happy Fathers' Day, Papa!

Salahuddin Bin Abdullah =)

*please ignore the knife's existence*

with this post, im attaching together a ~~very~~ short video of your pretty daughter a.k.a me and your not-so-pretty daughter playing a song for you. its rather sad actually, sorry!~its the only song montok knows~*sigh* at first i thought maybe montok and i could do a vlog wishing you a happy father's day but then she's busy ~~spamming yoseob's twitter~~ studying. so, for now this will do~ =)

my papa is my hero, my guide and my friend. I ♥ U~enough said. i dont think i need to elaborate it more. this will conclude it all.

Daughters, and perhaps sons, on this day

Will be sending gifts in every way

But the gift I give to you

Is not a one for others to view

It's a special gift between you and I

A gift which no one can untie

Father mine, I so love you

And I think you know that to be true

.I will still be a daddy's girl.

and of course, to all fathers in the world, doesnt matter if you are called father, papa, ayah, bapa, abi, tok wan, etc. HAPPY FATHERS' DAY. u guys did a great job of raising ur children. =)

''dads are often overprotective and somewhat annoying, but do you think you can be who you are now without him?'' -matluthfi-

.MyFaveSongEver.

2011-06-16T20:30:00.001+02:00

Who can say for certain
Maybe you’re still here
I feel you all around me
Your memories so clear

Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You’re still an inspiration
Can it be (? )
That you are mine
Forever love
And you are watching over me from up above

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you’re there
A breath away’s not far
To where you are

Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn’t faith believing
All power can’t be seen

As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
’cause you are mine
Forever love
Watching me from up above

And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you’re there
A breath away’s not far
To where you are

I know you’re there
A breath away’s not far
To where you are

.150juta.

2011-06-11T12:27:00.001+02:00

Untuk kali keseratus lima puluh juta

Mereka tanyakan engkau soalan yang sama

“Eh kenapa kau masih lagi mahukan dia?”

“Apa kau buta, apa kau pura-pura suka”

Di seratus lima puluh juta kali itu

Di depan semua engkau tarik tangan aku

Yang sedang buat muka kosong tak ambil tahu

Sambil ketawa engkau bilang satu per satu

“Dia mungkin bengis seperti singa”

“Tapi dia nangis tonton cerita Korea”

“Dia mungkin keras bila bersuara”

“Tapi dia jelas, jujur apa adanya”

“Aku lagi kenal dia”

Dah lebih seratus lima puluh juta kali

Aku pesan padamu apa yang bakal jadi

Engkau dan aku ada mungkin tidak serasi

Engkau sangat manis, aku ini pula dawai besi

Di setiap seratus lima puluh jutanya

Aku pun dalam hati semacam tak percaya

Apa kau lihat pada aku jujurkan saja

Terus kau cubit dagu aku, sambil berkata

“sayang mungkin baran tak kira masa

tapi sayang tahan kalau yang salah saya

sayang mungkin saja keras kepala

tapi sayang manja bila kita berdua–

saya kenal sayang saya”

Buat apa dicerita

Bahagia kita rasa

Biar tak dipercaya

Peduli orang kata

Baju ronyok tak apa

Asal pakai selesa

Berkilau tak bermakna

Kalau hati tak ada

Aku lebih bengis dari sang naga

Tapi bisa nangis semata demi senja

Suaraku keras tak berbahasa

Kerna aku rimas gedik mengada-ngada

Aku mudah baran tidak semena

Mana boleh tahan angin cemburu buta

Dan aku sengaja tunjuk keras kepala

Aku punya manja, kau saja boleh rasa

Rahsia kita berdua..

fyn kamal- 150 juta

.hurt.

2011-06-09T01:26:00.001+02:00

. i hate PDA. public display of affection ye. lbh2 lagi pompuan dgn pompuan. walopn korang bkn gay. tp gedik-much? da tahu dh korang berdua da mcm gam melekat same2. tp bleyh x jgn tnjuk dpn org?xpyh nk tnjuk sgt la.skt mate dan hati.sekian.

☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
.via iphone.

Location:on my bed?

.That Boy.Geu Namja.

2011-06-06T21:55:00.000+02:00

.tonight im feeling fine. im alone just wasting time.no Monday movie nights or anythings.im just having conversations.with the thoughts in my head.all i hear is my heart is crying.wont it just sing instead.

it would be wrong for me to say

.i dont need that boy by my side. i dont need that boy in my life. i dont want to talk it out. i dont want to say hes my kind. i dont want to say that hes mine. i don't want to tell him.

.honestly, this won't do. how is he doing?. i tell myself im feeling well. but i know im such a fool. ill just take it as a new beginning. but you know I dont feel that way. who will take all this pain away?

ps : just another craps that has been going on and on in my head.

.MTS.

2011-06-04T21:41:00.004+02:00

its been 4 days already after we started to commence 'Make Them Smile' Project.and through it all, i only have one regret.

.i didnt take any photo when the mural was still empty. if i did, then u guys can see the progress we are making.

maybe i should start with the horse.

☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
.via iphone.

.WhatIsOnEgyptians'MindsActually?.

2011-06-03T00:25:00.001+02:00

something happened today. and i dont feel good 'bout it. as u guys know.~~like hell someone would wanna read my blog after their first trial.~~ im a doctor-to-be*insyaAllah* and i visit hospitals regularly. hospitals are like my second home here in Egypt.

so, today was no different from my other days. I just got back from volunteering myself to the 'Make Them Smile' Project where I help to decorate the playground into something cooler. three words. 'A Total Makeover'. after spilling a drop or two of 'da7an' a.k.a the paint on my jeans, i went home earlier than the others since i had a squash training today which was then got cancelled by Montok , basically the gate where i was heading is between the paediatric hospital and specialized hospital. suddenly, from a far I could see two women was running toward the closed gate anxiously with one of them holding a child in her arm. a 7@8 years old girl. i could catch a glimpse. the girl was bleeding mildly on the head and seemed to be unconscious.

take a note. the gate was closed and a bawab a.k.a doorkeeper and a soldier was guarding the gate *since Hosni Mobarak went down, soldiers rule, so everywhere I go, I can see them holding tightly to their rifles*

As the women reached the gate, one of the women told them this was a emergency and the girl needed to be treated right away. in lieu of opening the gate, the bawab told her this gate is already closed and she needed to go to the front gate. and without wasting any time, the woman ran like ~~hell~~ to the front door. What is Wrong With You People?!!the girl might be as well as dead if the condition was severe u know?

so there I was, standing alone like a tree whooshing through the air. I was like 50 metres away from the gate.

Anywho, I stubbornly walked toward the gate even though i could see the gate is closed clearly.

Me : 'Ma2fol wala la?' means 'Is it closed?' while pointing to the gate.

.surprised surprised. the bawab and the soldier greeted me with 'ya Dukturah, tafadholi!!' means 'Dear Doctor, come come' and they opened the gate for me. What the Fish? u could open the freaking door for a perfectly healthy woman like me and you couldnt to a sick girl?

I seriously dont understand you people~

.ThisLoveThisHate.

2011-06-01T23:02:00.001+02:00

.in a time of need, only few can see what's wrong. millions tend to crawl but only those who choose can make it through this all. only few can sing like lions cause i sing until im gone and ive got ur back until we're back where we belong. a woman held my shield and through the battle i did wrong. a man who taught me wisdom through the static we recall and maybe when ive gone my names will echo through the stars. every start's got it's ending even when we've learned to rise above it all.

.I see you so please stay strong.

.and we once also had a story too. u can see that good men only come in few. even in our greatest moments we may win or we may lose.every song's got it's rules, uve got to learn to make it through. maybe one day we can choose how it feels to be a woman or a man without rules but burried underneath. let these words strengthen all ur views because these words were meant for u.

.This love this hate is burning me away.

.innertalk.

2011-05-31T22:09:00.001+02:00

you seem like the kind to love them than leave them and disappear

then 'the whisper turned to shouting and shouting turned to laughters and it takes away our fear'

the whole world is not yours for the taking actually

turn around and fix your eyes in my direction so there is a connection. take a look at me so you can see.

you say im a stranger and you say im a danger i am broke and abandoned

im confident but i cant pretend i wasnt terrified to meet you, i was hoping that you can see it too

.yiruma - river flows in you piano cover.

2011-05-30T15:35:00.002+02:00

.re-post!

i didnt post anything yesterday and the day before yesterday.

no time ma.

so this will do for now.

will try to update more k?no worries.

i wanted to upload more of these.

but sadly, i dont have any camcorder

iphone is certainly not a choice

no handler too.

.What I Heard Egyptian Talked about me.

2011-05-27T18:27:00.001+02:00

.semalam bace post cik dilla taib yang bertajuk 'What I heard Korean talked about me.' best2. sile la baca post beliau, at least kite taw ape pndapat foreigners tentang kite.

.agak terkejut sbb sblm ni igt org korea msti suka kutuk2 kita kat belakang dan kita mungkin igt yg orang arab ni msti pndang kita baik2 je. ye la. al-maklum la, mesir plak, mesir ni tmpat ketiga makbul doa plak selepas mekah dan madinah. ckp bumi anbia', takkan nk kutuk2 plak kan.

well, thats what u say.

YE. SAYA DA DUK SINI 3TAHUN TP CAKAP ARAB MASIH BERTERABUR. tapi tak bermaksud saya xpndai langsung dan tak paham ape yang dorang ckp. yg paling pedih skali dgr bile neik teksi, lbh2 lg kalau neik2 je mmg da ad org arab lein dlm tu. ouh. btw, kat sini tak same mcm malaysia, kat sini kl taxi tu tak cukup 4org, dye akan berhenti amek org lein smpai la cukup. DAN TAKDE AIR-COND, tp xkesah la sbb round2 mansoura ni 2genih a.k.a rm1 je. ad je 'ammu' (pakcik) yg nk cekik darah mintak 3@4genih kl nmpak cam kite ni lemah. pada adik2 junior, sile la jngan bagi.

bile da ad org arab lein dlm taxi tu, driver ngan egyptian tu msti akan berborak bagai nk rak then ckp2 pasal kitorang yg kat blkang ni mcm kitorang xphm. ye la. da org nk kutuk. xkn nk lawan mulut, dgr je la. malas nk layan. mostly, bende yg dorang akan ckp, ialah, betape tak pndai nye ktorang ckp arab. ad jugak aritu jumpa manager bank of egypt dan dye tny malaysian ni still gune air sungai ke basuh2 baju?

tak kesah la. asal kite tau malaysia ni mcm mana da cukup.

tapi bukan smua egyptian sebegitu, ad je yg tau hal ehwal malaysia dan mengikuti perkembangan politic kita. respect kat malaysian kat sini dll.

.Saya Nak Join Bloglist Andyhowtt.

2011-05-26T23:56:00.000+02:00

.does anyone here know who on earth is ANDYHOWTT ? ?.

no?

like seriously?

.he is like the best blogger ever.

.and no im not toadying him just to get on his bloglist.

*who am i kidding?*

.ok2. thats one of the reasons but ass kissing is a harsh word.

.u know theres a vast difference between kissing someone butt and respecting them?.

~and HELL NO, its not sniffing their ass, cause it would be SO WRONG!~

why did i say hes the best?

he knows the most latest issues as fast as G6's flying, i dont know how he does that but thank you. 24:7 of onlining perhaps?

ouh.and btw. RAWR means 'I Love You' in dinosaurs and yes i can speak dinosaurs and all of you can too, u guys just dont realize it.

Saya Nak Join Bloglist Andyhowt

.LAI LAI LAI.Tengok FBTV.RAACUUN

2011-05-25T22:34:00.001+02:00

.ITS A PHENOMENON.
mane tak jadi satu fenomena, ye la. ak duk jauh plak dr mesia. kl neik kapal terbang tu xde transit dlm 11jam jugak la. memang la datang sini nk study. tp kadang2 rindu la jugak nk tgk cite2 kat tv tu, astro ke siaran biase ke. takmo tgk dalam youtube. taknak taknak. nk yg live je. siaran langsung gitew*agak gedik*

so, pg td dpt berita baik!!walaupon agak lmbt, tp still, bahagia la.RAACUUN TV NETWORK. fenomena kan kan kan. facebooktv*FBTV*class gitew.

nevertheless, tak rase pon bendalah ni akan ad kat situ selama2 nye. mane taknye, korang bygkn kl pihak prima astro taw. camne2?kite2 yg duk jauh ni bleyh berharap je la.mcm raacuun tu sndiri ckp, 'kite hanya merancang' sayang ko lbh.

sapa2 yang rasa sedeyh sbb duk oversea mcm ak ni yg xdpt tgk cite melayu ke, atau korang duk malaysia, tp kat umah xde astro ke, bleyh la tgk kat sini.lagi syok kalu internet umah korang laju, xde la tgk sekat2.

korang : aja, camne nk tgk ni?camne?camne?cecite cecite~

ak : korang pg kat link ni.lps tu korang click 'like'. then pg kat LIVE streaming tu, ad kat sblah kiri sidebar tu.

pilih la yg mane satu korang nak tgk.

*nmpak mcm ni,nampak?nampak?*

korang : huhh?xde astro warna pon!!camne nk tgk maharajalawak??!*sobsob*

*innersidetalk*~da agak dh, budak2 ni msti nk tgk maharajalawak je.

aja : korang jgn la nanges!kat sidebar tu pon ad poll!korang bleyh vote astro warna ke sport ke~ape2 je la

yohohohoh*brook's laugh* bleyh gak tgk astro ceria,cool kan kan?satu je korang kene igt, lame mane agaknye bendalah ni bertahan?so korang kene la jage ati korang, kl da xde nanti, jngn plak dibaling laptop tu ke dinding sbb xpuas ati, mane ad bende yg kekal.ye dok?ye dok?

.LYNAS.

2011-05-24T16:21:00.001+02:00

.this is so true. no more political propaganda. lets save our country from this thing.i might as well have to consider living abroad when i have kids in the future if this company decided to settle down in malaysia.

.pantaiPCB.

2011-05-24T00:09:00.000+02:00

.was taken in pantai cahaya bulan, kb the last time i went home.

.via iphone.

.and yes i was stupid not to bring my slr.

.how forgetful can i be?.

.invi.

2011-05-23T18:35:00.001+02:00

.even still. i hear the sound of you.
.even today. i lived in the traces of you.

.even still. i see your figure.
.even today. i lived in the time of you.

.even within some stranger's figure passing on the street.
.even above those leaves riding the wind with a lonely dance.
.even within the air brushing past my cheeks on some evening.
.in everything i see, hear and feel.
.you are there.

and yeah, how are you?

.even tomorrow. i will see you.
.even tomorrow. everything will be the same as today.

are you the same with me?

.even on that big empty chair left on the side of the street.
.even in the glass i thoughtlessly filled to drink some water.
.even within the mirror I face to look at myself.
.even within the music secretly sitting in deeper from the edge of my ear.
.you are there.

now what can i do?
im invisible to you~

.argh.

2011-05-22T22:08:00.000+02:00

taw x tension gile ngan linkwithin ni.kdg2 ad gmbr kadang2 xde.nk kene sepak jugak bendalah ni.

.newLook.

2011-05-22T21:22:00.003+02:00

tadaa!i've changed my template!i like it simple~aww~but but but~it is still under construction~i'll make it nice and easy for you guys to read~

.internmedEXAM.

2011-05-21T20:50:00.003+02:00

*taken during Manchester Family Outing*

*muke kucing ni mcm memintak-mintak pelempang kan*

this 26th is my 2nd rotation assessment.40Q in 1hr. last rotation i was in surgery, this one is internal med and next week, i'll be in urology rotation~

neomu himdeuro!

*i couldnt find one with a tired-look.i used this instead!~u get what i mean*wink2

~geundae, jeongmal haengbokhae~ =) .i heart medicine.

but~*theres always a 'but' in all my posts~

i got this fever for so long i dont think i can be cured anymore.it all started when my lil sis brought back home this s0-called-disease from rain(bi). it was 2001 if i recalled?its a k-pop fever and i keep ter'korea' everyday~

♪Neon jeongmal mystery, mystery*why* mystery, mystery*why*♫

besides, theres so many movies i havent watch yet~and i have you, bloggie to be updated*yes!!i decided to update you more frequently. im inspired by someone(please dont ask)*

ouh ouh ouh, i did a How I Met Your Mother marathon yesterday. ouh barney stinson, ur getting married~*AH HA!!SPOILER ALERT HERE!~pointing at herself~

despite of all these distractions, i really need to get going~but i seemed to procrastinate things that matter to me the most.A LOT.needing a major change here!

.2heart.

2011-04-30T17:16:00.001+02:00

dear hati,
u have to be patient. he'll come. its just a matter of time. i know currently u like someone but please lower down ur expectation.he'll never gonna be urs.noone has before so why now? its hard u know.the unrequired love is so damn difficult.

i should have not fallen for him. but somehow i did. and everything started to change now.i hate it.why hati?y u've changed?u do know the awkwardness when i face him right?the sad part is that he doesnt know.i dont know whether to wait or move on!

☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
.via iphone.

.bleed?.

2011-04-19T17:18:00.001+02:00

So.i printed schedule summary.bajet nk tampal kat dinding a.then nk tampal kene la gune cellotape.ye dok?malas carik gunting pnye pasal, gigit dgn gigi je.mcmmane xtaw, smpai berdarah2 bibir.haih.looser gile kan.bertambh injury dibibirku.da la da ad 2 ulcers dlm mulut ni.td mkn salmon sandwich pon skt.mane x nye, terkene sos tomato. Pediyh woO.korang mane taw sbb xkene kat korang.wekk!

Ps : since ad blogpress kat iphone ni, blog ni da xjd mcm blog dh.smua bnde pon gtaw kan.lor.kan blog ni disponsor oleh sukasuki.production. So suke at la ye?bwahhaha
Ps : i love u.

☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
.via iphone.

.hot.hot.

2011-04-17T09:07:00.001+02:00

.its damn hot here.and its not even summer yet.ohgod.i dont think i can survive this summer break.haih.haih.haih.should i go back to malaysia or should i just stay here?papa papa papa. Well, actually i have another plan but who knows, me just plan and u know who decides =))

☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
.via iphone.

.heartheart.

2011-04-16T16:24:00.001+02:00

Hahaha.alaa.twitter kan tmpat suke hati kite nk bwat ape.so ape lagi.jgn la kesah ape org2 post.kan kan kan.

Skang ni ramai gile org bwat acc twitter.mcm cendawan tumbuh slps hujan.*aww* tp kenape ek?ak bkn nk marah ke ap. Cume pelik la. Kenape? Eoteokke?

Ps : i heard something unpleasant bout u today. I dont mind still =)

☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
.via iphone.

.blogpress.

2011-04-15T13:20:00.001+02:00

Dear blog,

.its not that i didnt want to update u. Its just, I somehow found it hard to open u via browsers but WORRY NO MORE! I now have a blogpress in my iphone where i can update u blog anywhere and anytime i want!!yay. But as u should know by now, i want to keep u as secret initially, now i dont think its even possible as i accidentally put ur url in my twitter. And yea i know i can take it down but im a forgetful girl, i tend to forget and i bet u know that since u've been in my possession for so long now.

Ps : .i heart sushi and im dumb enough to not bring that seaweed.

.kosong.

2011-03-15T15:06:00.000+02:00

1. ko msti igt ko hot kan?bajet a wei~ak nmpak cam desperate ke?asal kl ktorang ckp ngan ko..ko xtgk pon ak?skali pndang pon x~asal ek?
2. ak taw la ak ni xcantik~tp perlu ke nmpk sgt yg ko tu xberape nk suke ak?
3. saket ek mate ko kl tgk ak tuk 2-3 seconds pon?
4. ak rase cam org bodoh ckp ngan ko tp mate ko bukan dkt mate ak~
5. ko bkn nk respond pon ckp ak~ko nk respond yg org lein nye je~benci sgt ek smpai nk dgr suare ak pon ko xnk?
6. malas kwn ngan org cam ko. laki bodoh.

.habit.

2011-03-14T19:48:00.001+02:00

.im 22 years and 1 day old but still cant stop my bad habit of biting my nail~note that im not always doing it, only when im thinking. i dont know why but i just cant resist them. the temptation is just.....*sigh*how to describe it? just so inviting me to them at first ~hahha~i know..that does not even make sense~

its just so hard for me..double works that is~shape it and buff it later on~otherwise my fingernails wont be like girl-fingernails~ *sigh*

and......

why korean actors in every k-drama have to be so damn sweet huh???*or should i say like how the director wants them to be?*why can malay boys be like them too?im not so sure if there are anyone can be that sweet cause i never been in relationship before.YES!!IM 22 AND YES, I NEVER HAVE BEEN IN THAT KIND OF RELATIONSHIPS!!why?got problem ma?i just dont think its necessary yet~ =)

ouh guys!~please pray for japan~i have lotsa friends over there and i hope they are safe now and then.this whole disaster makes me think a lot~i love japan~japan is one of my favourite countries. i hope this does not cost more lives and damages to the country. more than 10,000 people is dead and missing so far. no more no more.

.HbToMe.

2011-03-12T19:45:00.000+02:00

yup~its 13th march and its my birthday today.

yayyyy~i've officially turned 22~woahh~big number aye?*well actually i've been 22 for quite sometimes already according to Islamic Calendar*wink2*

since i've been home alone for 2 weeks already, i might as well celebrate it by myself.no biggie

T___________________T *damn it*

nevertheless~

im overwhelming with gratitude for this 22 years of blessings from Allah s.w.t.
and yes. me too have new resolutions~ =)

.ComeBack.

2011-03-05T12:54:00.000+02:00

ouh ouh~please dont complain!it is only like my 30th times of posting my comeback~hahaha~i know~i know~i've been neglecting my blog quite for awhile now~sorry~

im already back to egypt~and apparently class will not open as sooner as i thought~whats the point of coming back early then?im not blaming anyone~im pretty much like it here. theres not so many malaysian yet here but soon it will be~

the fact is im missing all the fun in malaysia and i honestly abhor it~i should be one of them making history~oh god~nevermind.theres always good things behind everythings~ =) =)

i think im only updating my blog because im boring as hell~nothing to do~i might as well do my laundry for the 7th times in 2days~bubye world~

.sucks.

2011-01-27T14:46:00.001+02:00

.I'M SUCK IN CHANGING TEMPLATES.

.give up.okthanxbai.

.ExamIsOver.

2011-01-27T13:41:00.002+02:00

some of my friends went to celebrate their freedom
im at home instead
i somehow feel sad
i know exam is over

*sigh*

the only thing i can do now is pray~ =(

~enough with all this mourning, aja~

fatin's going back to malaysia today~safe journey fatin!!!
and i'll be going to turkey this 1st of february despite all the riots here in egypt~
im on the egyptian's civilian side. its time, gov~ no further comments~ =)

ouh ouh~as i said before~this template will be changed*forgot*bwahhah~~rush to choose the right template~

.♥.

2011-01-25T17:24:00.001+02:00

tora dtg lagi!!~

(=.=)V

yay~esok exam~ak paling suke exam. esok OSCE~ osce tu ape?<
osce ni abbreviation dr 'Oh, Saya Cantik Ek?'
ataupun dlm bhse ringkasnye, mcm exam subjective tp soalannye dlm comp~tulis jwpn still dlm ketas~bwahaha~pray to Allah this osce is gonna be easy~ insyaAllah~ *wink2*

inner side me : 'bakpo dh ak tulih blog ni?nk oyak bendo bena, dop ingak dh~hish, leko molek, oh ya'

1.ak igt nk tuka template blog a~nk pilih yg comeyl2 sket~bleyh x?template ni mcm limited a space dye~susah plak korang nk bace, kene scroll2 sgale~walaopon hanye brape ketol shj yg blogwalking~tp tu la~org jugak an~kene bwat yg terbeik la an~

2.ak suke baim wong

3.EZAD LAZIM or used to be known as EZAD EXISTS replied my youtube's msg~how cool is that?*aja dgr lagu melayu ke?*dgr je kl lagu tu best~exists ni one of my all-time favourite band~walopon ezad da xde dlm exists, tp lagu2 dye dgn exists dlu ak masih dgr~

4.lpas ni an, blog ni ak igt nk gunekn tuk hapdate ape2 yg ak suke,mcm pape relate ngan kpop ke~jpop ke jrock ke, ma new pianist obsession ke, pape je la..korang x suke? sile la pegi atas skali belah kanan tu, yg ad [x] tu~ad haku kesah?bwahahha

yg tu je for now~dadaa~

.twitter?.

2011-01-24T21:31:00.004+02:00

HAHAHA~

i was like trying my ass off to add twitter widget in here~ and then, i realized.....

my twitter account is a private one~how on earth i'll be able to put it here~then it would be public~duhh!!silly me~

NO~i dont wanna change my twitter's setting~if any of you want my id~come and ask me~i might give it to u~*aww*

.back again.FTW.

2011-01-24T18:49:00.004+02:00

oh blogku~ ni la orang ckp~hidup segan, mati tak mahu. da lame kowt x update. rase bersalah yg teramat plak pd followers ak yg ad seketul 2 ketul ni. tapi tu la, xtaw nk update ape. like i said before, my life is not exciting like other people's life. it does get exciting at some points like how i was able to answer my MCQ and essay exams perfectly.

* ok, its the other way round*im so pathetic, i know, and yet i tell people that They are the ones whose life is pathetic. that is just my reflection bebeyh. theres this one article stated 'ones will rather reflect their own unhappiness to others than admit it themselves' - by siti hajar salahuddin

do you know who she is?yeah, i know, she's quite cute?dont believe me?ask mr.google, i bet even google doesnt know her existence FTW~

im definitely not complaining bout my life, in fact, i love my life~alhamdulillah =) im just trying to blog here?hello?in blog's world, everyone complains~

ok ok. 2-3 ari ni, keinginan nk berblog ni membuak2. byk plak rasenye nk crite~tp internet umah sewaku tahun ni mengalahkan siput babi bergerak, duit internet makin mahal, ckp neikkan speed la hape la..tp lg lmbt ad la, typical EGYPTIAN, nk duit lebih, tak berbaloi gile duit ak byr kat ko, an?still~ok dr umah org yg xde internet langsung an~alah, dorang yg xnk internet, dgn alasan nk study la ape la, taw x internet connection ni sgt diperlukan~ kl xde internet, mane nk taw soalan spot ape nk kluar cam ari tu*via fb of course* tp malangnya, satu haraam pon x masuk. moral of the story, sile la jgn spot ape2. bace smua. kan senang~paham pon phm. nk jd doctor ni mane bleyh nk taw certain2 case je, ko tu nk rawat org, bukan nk rawat barang.

byk betol merepek ari ni~br igt kembali knape bwat blog. HAHA~papepon, lpas ni, blog ni akan diupdate sekerap yg boleyh~x kesah la ad ke x org nk bace an. as u can see there, at the top of my header's banner ad tulis 'suka-suki production' an?so suka-suki ak la nk tulis ape pon. NOBODY ASK FOR YOUR OPINION. NOBODY ASK YOU TO BE BORN~bwahahahah*ouh, da lame x gelak camni, bwahaha < dipetik dr encip satan, anime bleach

sekian, wabillahhi taufiq walhidayah, wassalamualaikum warahmatullahhi wabarakatuh~

.death.

2010-11-11T14:56:00.000+02:00

yeah~u read it correctly.today i would like to write about death

kematian?soalannya, berapa kali kamu2 igt mati dlm sehari?
Rasulullah S.AW diberitakan paling kurang 70 kali igt kematian dalam sehari~kamu2*juga ditujukan pada sy* berapa kali?sekali?2kali?none?

''asal la ko nk ckp pasal mati2 ni''said YOU!

td tgh usha2 fb..dpt berita kematian abah kpd slh seorang student kat sini. student tu agak rapat dgn sy. terkilan sgt~walopon sy tdak sempat mengenali arwah, but seriously, he brought my friend up magnificently, from that i know he had been a wonderful person in his life.

it brought me to tears after i heard the news~'why?u dont even know the man,everybodys gonna die someday~'yeah, i know that, but she had been through a lot from these past years~so much agonies , so much tears had been shed, from losing her brother to her father~ but these are all out of our hands.

Sesungguhnya Allah lbh menyayangi mereka. oleh itu ya Allah, tempatkanlah mereka2 dlm golongan org2 yg beriman.

“Orang yang ingat mati akan menyegerakan taubat, meningkatkan ibadah dan tenang dalam hidup. Itu maksud hadis. Sama ada ibadah asas, sunat dan umumnya. Tapi orang yang takut mati, akan hilang semangat untuk hidup. Takut mati menyebabkan mereka juga takut hidup. Hilang daya dan tenaga untuk berusaha.”- USTAZ PAHROL MOHAMAD JUOI

.hyeKawan2.

2010-10-31T01:03:00.001+02:00

benci dgn nuffnang and advertlet. da lame kowt pakai. tp duit xneik2. thinking of removing it permanently.

DONE~

.pengisyhtiharan.

2010-10-26T15:24:00.003+02:00

ish~xsuke la nk kene tulis tajuk segale. lpas ni nk tulis tajuk yg xde kaitan ngan post. harap maklum.

td pg caesar~APPARENTLY, sy bleyh tahan nafsu membeli sy!!~

igt kn xbleyh. tunggu fatin ngan siti beli mknn, walopon sy sgt2 la kelaparan~tp xpe la..simpan duit itu lbh penting. ad je brape2 genih dlm pocket, tp duit tu tuk phostostart pbl tuk next week, kl gunekn jugak duit tu, al-maknanya pbl-mate sy xdpt la ketas obj~*sigh*

xpe2.i think i can do this. i even started bringing water bottle to uni today~its not that bad as my bottle is comel!~time kasih mama~

.ItsSavingTime.

2010-10-25T18:51:00.003+02:00

mulai pd saat ini~sy da nk start kumpul duit~tuk mase dpnku jua~sy jealous bile kakak sy yg tua setaun dr sy suda mampu mengumpul byk2 duit.

amat susah kl melihatkan keadaanku yg sgt boros ini

tp xpe!!cube hajar~cube!~

da start da~1st skali, da xnk mkn kat luar

2.mkn kat umah aje~skali sari~

3. dah2 la neik taxi pg uni~jln kaki plak ek?sehat pe?mknenye kene kluar 30min awal ye~

4. JGN KLUARKN DUIT DR ATM* withdrawal tuk byr duit umah SHJ!*

bwat mase ni~yg tu je la kowt~

ps : blk confirm kurus+byk duit~bgus la tu an~

*kuatkn diri!!*

.idontthinkitsamishap.

2010-10-24T12:40:00.002+02:00

i first thought of it as a mishap
but then, its not that bad

ari ni bajet nk bwat cuti sndiri~skali ad schedule's changes~
klas kol 12, dpt taw kol 1140am~
mule2 pikir cam xsempat,so malas pg
tp pikir2 blk, i dont wanna waste my parents money by not going to classes, i dont wanna start now, sbb taw. kl skali xpg~mmg lpas tu xnk pg je~

so..bergegas la siap2~dgn tudung je xberape nk jadi*bkn xberape, mmg xjd langsung, xkesah la, bukan ad org nk tgk pon*
berlari2 anak amek taxi~smpai2 je kat dpn kulliah tibb tu, jumpe ngan azhar hamzah n halawatul iman~

iman pon lmbt gak~hahah~tp azhar dtg dr klas~skali klas batal!!!~haih~apekah~tuka jadual br, tp xjd jugak~last2 blk je~da xnk neik taxi sbb nk save duit~2genih ku sgt berharga ye skarang~

just look at the bright side~
1. i got to exercise in which im very lack of since xde mase*30min kowt pg blk gam3ah ngan umah*
2. yg tu je la kowt~ho ho ho~kne blk msk plak~

.update.

2010-10-23T23:06:00.000+02:00

BLANK!!

ps : haha~gotcha!~

.untitled.

2010-10-20T22:14:00.005+02:00

one of my doctors said in the past lectures, 'keeping things in ur heart in a long period can lead to diseases, such as Myocardiac Infarction (MI). this particular disease can be inherited if u're born in a family who does not really share their feelings to each other'

SO. IM JUST GONNA SAY IT ALL~*eventhough of course im not keeping any secrets, let alone in a long period*

this will be a journey of medichood.

u'll go to a medical school for 5@6 years, then you come home and need to serve ur country for another 5years~2 year in housemanship and 3 years as medical officers.

and trust me~the first 2 years as interns are the worst years of ur life, u'll be slaves *with pays nevertheless,YAY!* forget the vacations~cause u'll not getting any.

so, after doing countless surveys , most of the doctors-to-be have their vacation during their studies. for example, person A is going to be in her 2nd year the next semester, while waiting for his/her semester to start, she/he will go for a long vacation to clear up his/her mind. so that when the sem starts, her/his mind is fresh as new~

but in some families, they are not that sort of person. they will push their daughter/son, sister/brother harder without giving any time for them to relax and give more pressures until it becomes burdens. THIS IS TOTALLY NOT A HEALTHY LIFESTYLE~

dont just think for urself~ please consider it all~not only urself, how about the person?do you know how much pressure she already has in her studies?instead of giving her a hard time, just let her free FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!~study study study~what?are u serious of thinking a person need to study 365days 24/7?ur must be kidding~even albert einstein had his holidays~

.kegemukan.Eh?

2010-10-20T16:03:00.002+02:00

girls
always care for their body figure, not only for self-satisfaction, of course for their husband's sake~
nevertheless, its so hard to maintain it~seriously!~

u guys just think we can eat whatever things we wanna eat, NO!!! u guys are so wrong. i have to keep counting calories!~my weight is somehow maintained but i dont feel skinny~i feel like im bloating!~

honestly speaking, there's no way to keep me from eating everytime i come back to malaysia~ i dont really eat here in egypt though~ the last 2 summer breaks, i gained 10kg, i know!!thats too much right??~ but the last summer had been a blast, i eat a lot! but my BMI are still the same~*how i wish im a bit taller~*165cm* i wanna be 170+cm!, anyhow, thank you Allah for making me this tall~=too much details=

i need to become more slender~100x sit-ups a day don't really show any difference~how how how?

.im back!.

2010-10-19T23:32:00.005+02:00

.sblm ni langsung xrase cam nk update blog.tp lpas tgk sis kat update blog. tbe2 rase cam nk update gak. *nok wat gano. gelenya lajok*

gedik2gedik2

sorry sape2 yg follow sy ye~xpe2.totally gonna cover it up~

asal lame sgt ek sy xupdate?msti sbb xde bende nk diceritekan~satu lagi, rasenye sbb kl cite pon.mcm xde sape pon bace~so..xde pekdah plak~ kdg2 nk bwat private je blog ni~bwat cam diary tu. tu lg la xde sape akn bace kcuali sy. mmg la blog ni da mcm diary hidup dah~tp still gak nk org lein tau kite ni camne2 kan~

ok.quickupdate~

alhamdulillah. da neik 3rd year dah~so meaning, kl xkire taun ni~ad 2.5taun lg sblm sy abis medical school and go out to see the real world, actually, i am seeing the real world, real people, real people's attitude, the good ones, the naughty ones and not to forget the bad ones.

mintak2 la ngan tuhan taun ni dan taun2 seterusnye will go smoothly~*wah..sgt2 xsuke campor english and malay in one sentence~tp serious, malay sy sgt la xcantik~al -maklum la, org kelantan xbiase gune standard malay, tuk membuktikan malay sy xbrape ok, result malay sy time pmr B plak~ha ha ha~klakar plak pikir2 blk~xpe la..let the bygones be bygones, so, let this one be gone from u guys head~ thats why in writing, i prefer using english rather than malay, meshi?

ps : will try to update more often~

.HI.

2010-08-21T16:30:00.002+02:00

WARNING : DO NOT READ THIS POST!

okay, im not quite an everybody's-girl, im no perfect and im totally aware that my moral compass is not always heading to north but i know what rights and what is wrong.and thats about it

i am me, i mind my own business, i do what i like, me with own style, dont wanna care 'bout others' opinion. I AM ME

SEE.U READ!.U JUST WASTED 2MIN OF UR LIFE.

.argh!sorry.

2010-06-16T23:20:00.001+03:00

its been 200 years since i updated you dear bloggie
was really busy~
final exam ma~
Allah, let me pass this imtihan~

will be update you as often i can k baby?

.cover.

2010-04-24T16:20:00.009+02:00

da lame xupdate blog

sorry sgt2

i've been busy aiming for the goal

ops.terlebih sudah*ok.xde kaitan*

i have something for you guys~
fyi, this is just one of many things i'll do when im bored or one of my ways to release tension~ho ho horlicks
enjoy it~*a cup of tea wud be nice*

formspring.me

2010-04-18T23:19:00.002+02:00

ask me anything~?anyone?definitely gonna answer it~wOot2~ http://formspring.me/ctaja105

2010-04-16T00:50:00.002+02:00

.da lame xhapdate blog.
.saya malas.
.xde idea.
.told you before.
.no love?.no things.
.fullstop.

.bsb.

2010-04-09T21:19:00.002+02:00

beiklah
saya mengakui yang saya obses dengan lagu2 backstreetboys
i grew up listening to bsb's songs
and am still listening to 'em
its sad kevin left the group

.brian.nick.howieD.AJ.
.you all what i got left now.

.yay yay yay.

2010-04-07T22:03:00.006+02:00

.yay yay yay.
.two songs are added.

.south jordan's forever(my favourite-all-time-unsigned-band-which-you-all-must-listen-to-once-and-i-guarantee-you-will-want-more).

.yui's gloria!*i had to upload it myself*.
.ye.saye mmg seorang kipas-susah-mati Yui.
.kenape ye?.
.suara dye sgt cool.dye sorang yg talented.kebanyakn lagu sendiri composed.lirik lagu dye sgt best.
.ye.saye pndai japanese.xterer.tp bleyh la nk idup.kalo korang nak paham lyrics dye.xpyh blajar jepun pon bleyh.google sudeyh.
.ye.saye ad smua albums dye.yay!.nk x?.

ps : if you believe the burden on your shoulder is too much to handle, just run towards something better,ok?

.Apekah.

2010-04-04T13:42:00.002+02:00

"sesungguhnya org2 mukmin itu bersaudara,krn itu damaikanla antara kedua saudaramu yg berselisih. dan bertakwalah kpd Allah agr kamu mendapat rahmat" [49:10]

- asal nak panaskn lagi keadaan,der?-

"..dan jgnlah kamu mencari2 kslhn org lain,dan jgnlah ada diantara yg mengata sbhgian yg lain.Apakah ada d antra kamu yg suka memkn dgg saudaranya yg sdh mati?Tentu kamu merasa jijik!.." [49:12]

-mengata la lagi~kami yg dpt pahala free2.-

dan oleh itu bertaqwalah kpd Allah, sesungguhnya Allah maha penerima taubat,maha penyayang, ye?

ps : sape2 yg makan cili.dye lah yg merase kepedasan itu~
pss : i love you lah!!muah muah~

.OkOk.

2010-04-02T12:55:00.006+02:00

i got requests from many people to tell 'em bout 'the' dream~

ok ok.not many, its only one~but one is enough.Lol.

people say if we thought too much of someone, the person will emerge in our dream~so, there he was~in my dream, dazzling as ever, giving me a card *more like a banner* telling me how he felt for me.but guess what?i didn't read the whole sentences because i was too shy as he was looking right through my eyes from the part i took that 'card' from him trembling~what the fudge?

i only read the bold ones in the so-called-card.the only sentences i managed to grab were,

'i love you'

'i'll still kiss you even when we both turn to grannys'

it was weird but it was all right, you ARE a weird fellow in real life after all.

i don't usually dream, so this could be something to me. AND i don't really usually wake up in the morning sitting up for almost half an hour smiling to myself just to recall the dream and start jotting down every detail i can possibly remember from the dream because i was too afraid i will not remember it later on.

enough said.

'来い輪不思議な魔法だね'

'love is a strange magic'

-aja-

.i will stop writing when i have no love to share.

.tagged?.

2010-03-27T21:59:00.003+02:00

1. Do you think you are hot?

im hot alright~sila siram saye dgn air sejuk boleyh x?

2. Upload the favorite picture of you.

3. Why do you like that picture?
duh~cause i love my family and my bibikS *cant wait to meet baby sofea*

When was the last time you ate pizza?
last 2 weeks?with my girls!

5. The last song you listened to?
kara - lupin

6. What are u doing right now beside this?
facebooking?

7. What name you prefer beside yours?
mamaa~papaa~*is that even considered as names?**♪lalalala♪*

8. 4 peoples to tag:
1.ctsarah
2.beliau
3.fatin-saje tag ko blk~

9. Who is number 1?
my gomuk sister

10. Number 2 is having a relationship with?
yaw!gewe nge sape yaw?

11. Say something about number 3.
si budak sengal!kami selalu bersame2.dimane ad fatin.disitu ad sy.fatin slalu buli sy.mcm ni hah!sy hanye insan yg lemah.sy taw sy xsecantik,sepandai,setinggi dye.kepada fatin.sila jgn buli sy lgi.pape pon.i love you lah.sekian.

.HappyBelatedBirthdayToMe.

2010-03-14T20:13:00.002+02:00

.beiklah.kali ini post ini akan ditulis dlm bahase melayu.kowt.

saye sgt bahagia bile housmates+ex-housmates+fatin+rai+siti+alia+sarah+anep+tuty+naz+pcka buat surprised party smalam.unexpected gile.nk nangis pon ad tyme tu, tp lacrimal gland saye da kering dsbbkn kejadian ptg itu(kpd fatin+siti, sile diam)

beiklah.genaplah usia saye 21taun dan 1hari.

nk blk jd 15taun blk bleyh x?ho ho horlicks.usia hanyelah angka smate2.xkesah.

resolution?

nk brubah!

iman- kadang2 turun,kadang2 neik kan, tp lpas ni nak neik jek, camne?tingkatkn ibadat sgale

study- susah nk study bile ad byk commitments, bwat mase skarang, sgt2 busy dgn talent show, tiap2 mlm nk kene jamming, lpas jek bendalah ni, nk focus study!

family- oh moi family, i miss you guys so much. commitment kpd keluarga.

bf?-da umo 21, da kene start usha2.*bknsebelumniponmmgsukausha2ke?*.susah sgt ke nk carik laki yg sy suke dye dan dye pon suke sy?slalu jumpe sy suke dye tp dye xnmpak sy atau sy xsuke dan xnmpak dye tp dye suke sy.apekah?

ps : i love you

pss : kaknonie, how r u been?bear with it for awhile k, sis?

.firstInjection.

2010-03-04T14:44:00.004+02:00

my first-ever injection
and the patient's name is fatin

intradermal?
subcutaneous?

'blease inject your colleague in the intradermal with 15degree and 0.1ml of local anaesthesia. when you inject your colleague, you will see an elevation on the skin.'said the doctor.

notabulukaki : this is only a test-drive. so, just inject it in the intradermal. it wont give any effects unless you inject it in the subcutaneous where the patient will feel the numbness for about 15min
yea yea yea my mistake~ i injected in the subcutaneous instead of intradermal

NUMB!

notabulukaki2 : look at the bright side~i'll be a good doc~when patients come, theres no such thing as injection in the intradermal~all are done in the subcutaneous~ yay me!

.guessing.

2010-02-24T00:38:00.001+02:00

i still cant forget you, i guess

i still miss you, i guess

and this time i dunt think im guessing

i know i love you

.trip.

2010-02-14T19:35:00.007+02:00

just got back from dahab-sinai trip last night~
letiyh but worth it
effin' awesome
not so thrill bout the snorkelling as everyone else since i've done it many times before
but the quad bike a.k.a the atv was awing!
my first ever time riding the atv and i was alone!!

*LMAO*
something just crossed my mind
those happy memories when we were snorkelling
1.being the one dragging 2 of my friends who dont really know how to swim(it was tired but i din mind as they got their chance to see those beautiful choral and colorful fishes)
2.sito!!hahahhaha..ok..ok..what happen in dahab stays in dahab..i know.but still

*back to our topic(which i dunno what)*

so
in 3days to come
me going to luxor-azwan-hurghada
yay me

ps : there is one tiny thing i was kinda discontent bout this trip.its not the place.its the people.but there just things that cant be said in this blog.
pss : i am easy to fall in love but only certain people can pass my test.what test?personality of course, a bit of looks and other things

psss : thanks to sarjan misai a.k.a azam and kapten amin for giving our group such moral support until all of us managed to reach the peak of jabal musa

.craps.

2010-02-04T01:05:00.002+02:00

caution : this post is full with vulgar words due to hatred towards someone.sorry.
dear u,yes u, u piece of shhii**,

i dun think u know that u r full of shits.u tell lies.lotsa ‘em.u brag bout something stupid that noone in this entire world wud possibly be proud of.well.maybe there are person just like u. sex-maniacs.eccentrics.locos.u know what i mean?if u do, that wud be fabulous, but i dun think u’ll get it.ur a disgrace to mankind. u r just mr-i-am-god-in-my-own—fcukin’-world-where-i-can-do-and-tell-craps-and-u-all-are-no-good-to-me.u know what.fcuk off.get urself a mirror,will u?.ur nothing but a douchebag.i hate you.dun tell me what to do and dun u ever tell me my wrongs.yea.yea.bla.bla.bla.u think u always right.i dun give shit.u get me?or ur just plain stupid?.ouh.u think people fancy u?think again scumbag.i know my compass is not always pointing to the north.but if i say sumthin’ wrong?something is fcukin’ wrong!!what an idiot.ur whole life is a joke.wake up!what a bitch.and no.im not talking about a slut here. u r worse than that.i cant believe we used to be friends.its not only lies,its the fact u humiliated our religion and women and nation and everything~i really hope u‘ll read this.and yes.my abomination towards u is far beyond hatred.it couples up with disgust and loathsome and all those bad stuffs.no i dont need ur stray guidances.thank you very much.but sorry to say.ur the last person in this whole wide world whom i’ll take advice from,NO, screw that!!i wont ever ever and i mean ever in my whole life taking advice from a bugger like u.

.live.

2010-02-02T01:26:00.001+02:00

can u handle anything?

anything?

everything?

including stress?

how then?

different persons with various ways,aye?

me?dancing of course~im not a pro~but it will do~

well,act, i think through dancing, u can express anything~

hatred, love,sympathy, isolated, revenge~everything!just like the music~cool huh?

who cares if u dance like an eccentric ?yup,NO ONE~but u manage to release ur tension

its a bonus if u can dance like stars~*winks*

.untitled.

2010-01-26T15:26:00.003+02:00

Time Clicked as I waited
The hour ended before my take
Sitting, thinking, waiting; my mind escaped

The day grew old as night passed
Wolves crying, coyotes howling; anticipating
Watching, staring, seeing -- nothing

Silence began the day
as morning came without notice
Tears began to fall, slowly

The day moved on without hope
Wishing to be what is not to be

The sun moved to its peak
without a whisper or retreat

Time moved, but still empty
Stomach ached, curled
was Still waiting
until it all cleared
when my heart is no longer for you

.pitchblackemotion.

2010-01-24T22:33:00.001+02:00

For better or worse

it doesnt matter why

'cos i broke my wings before i learned to fly

like a sinner to a flame

i was drawn to you

and it felt like i was running out of time with you

all my life like in slow motion

no need to hide my pitch black emotions

and i dont care

for what you say

'cos the only reply i have is ‘screw you’ anyway

ps : i dun love u no more.got more interesting things to do than loving u

.haih-haih.

2010-01-22T15:25:00.004+02:00

im not myself lately

i dun study smart

let alone study hard

i dun do my laundry

i wake up late

i've been wasting my time doing unnecessary things

i wanna be myself again

where are you?

mama papa fam~

am needing you guys here

T_T

someone?

.sighing.

2010-01-20T15:03:00.001+02:00

been missing you and am still missing you both

R.I.P michael joseph jackson

1958-2009

R.I.P robert nesta marley or bob marley

1945-1981

.teeHee.

2010-01-17T20:58:00.002+02:00

.woOt².
.new song.

.kalian2 yg ku tidak kenali.
.sila pegi mein jauh² ye.

.ad brani dkat ka?.

.SoonerORLater.

2010-01-15T04:29:00.001+02:00

cant wait around forever for u

sooner or later, u gonna come around

u’ll be sorry, when u figure it out

i was always everything that u need

sooner or later

u gonna wish u had me

.same2 juget2.

1,2

to the left

to the right

say oh,yeah

.cant fight this feeling anymore.

2010-01-09T20:21:00.003+02:00

I cant fight this feeling any longer

Yet, I'm still afraid to let it flow

What started out as friendship has grown stronger

I only wish I had the strength to let it show

Even as I wander, I'm keeping you in sight

You're a candle in the window on a cold dark winter's night

And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might

And I can't fight this feeling anymore

I've forgotten what I started fighting for

It's time to bring this ship into the shore

And through away the oars forever

'Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore

My life has been such a whirl wind since I saw you

I've been running around in circles in my mind

Babe it always seems that I'm following you, boyl

'Cause you take me to the places that I thought I'd never find

.hater.

2010-01-07T22:23:00.001+02:00

Hate on me hater, now or later
Cause I'm gonna do me,
you'll be mad baby
Go 'head and hate on me, hater
I'm not afraid of
what I got I paid for
You can hate on me

i dun care a thing bout hater

ps : notice me already wont cha?

pss : this is only a quote, not related to moi act~or i think its not related to moi~watever

.my-so-called-audition.

2010-01-04T23:16:00.009+02:00

remember the so-called-audition i told u guys?
well
i uploaded it
so
feel free to watch~
comment if u want
just dont b mean k?

notabuku : pause the 'mystery' first before loading videos below

reminder:
i know i screwed up!!!
try standing in front of more than 50 people
expecting you to be the best
with pressure of not letting ur peers down
argh!
i was nervous ok?

ps : i still love you

.sickntired.

2009-12-31T17:51:00.003+02:00

im sick and tired of being sick and tired

*sigh*
how come it is so arduous just to understand what others think about us
especially when it comes to your own friends
or friends who u thought are ur friends but in contrary are not actually ur friends.
get what im saying?
if u dont
PUT A SOCK IN IT
*bleyh ye beransur² click [x] kat atas*

i dont really care about others might say or think bout me
i really do not care
but occasionally, it just came across my mind that i am not needed at all
and people hate me
peculiar as much as it sounds
aye?

and for you mister
finally, you are leaving me here
finally, erase me away
finally, although it would be hard for awhile
finally, everything is for you
at least treasure our sweet memories for us
i told you i never been in love
i say things i never meant in my heart
sadness comes to me when its all too late
...............................................................................

its been two days after my show
wow~
show is actually a big word
lets say performance
nobody in my family knows im in a band except for my lil sis
we performed halo by beyonce and the climb by miley cyrus
i suck!
ouh~
for those who din know~
i really really messed it up in the first song
i was too nervous
dang~
luckily, the egyptians and malaysians were all so supportive and i eventually forgot all about mr.nervousness
ouh~i played keyboard

halo by nazeera
fatin as guitarist

the climb by pcka
nazeera as guitarist

and i was the keyboardist for both songs
i actually wanted to back naz up as guitarist discreetly
but we already have fat
wateva

.sarah!!.

2009-12-17T00:09:00.001+02:00

its 0000am or 1200am already on 17th dec 2009

SELAMAT HARI JADI

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

SANAH HELWA

おやん常備おめでとう（OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU)

生日快乐 (shēngrì kuàilè)

SAENGIL CHUKKAHAMNIDA！

我爱你~愛してる～

.sigh.

2009-12-17T00:00:00.001+02:00

i really need to get back on track~

i skipped lectures almost 3times already (i think its 3)

i shud have listen to a friend of mine~’once u skipped a class, then there’ll be a second and third and so on,u’ll get used to it’

damn girl,u right~

‘self-taught is more appropriate for me’..thats what i thought

self-taught my arse!

i wont be skipping any classes for now on~

i give u my word dear papa and mama~

till then~

.tadaa!!.

2009-12-12T23:09:00.006+02:00

love is pain, love is pain
love is over
u tell me tell me why

i felt like i held a tons of burdens on my shoulders~
now?
im light as a feather~

know why?
because my heart hurts~
you you you
damn you~

畜生！！！！
大嫌い！！

i'll be strong nevertheless~

.nothingmuch.

2009-12-12T22:47:00.002+02:00

dear bloggie~
im so sorry i din update you
its not like i hate you or i forgot bout you
its just that
i ran out of ideas~
im sorry

i'll be back as i have ideas ok?
tomorrow mayb~
mayb this week~
next weeks or next months

i'll write when i find love~

.::UndiscOvered::.

.post sedih.

.oohoooiii.*gaya m.daud kilau*.

.hello 2012.

.MaseKecik.

.未来.

.Travel Kit in Black - Giveaway Open Worldwide!.

.ihatewhen.

.Sigma's.

.Sigma Eyeshadow Palette Giveaway.

.sorry.

.self-consolation.

.Pengalaman Pertama BerRamadhan Di Mesir.

.b-e-a-utiful.

.Wordless Wednesday.

.flight.

.Ke'cliché'an Korean Drama.

.wordless wednesday.

.Malaikatmu Tersentuh Hati.

.Wordless Wednesday.

.beginilah.

.Wordless Wednesday.

.imsorry?.

.And that's why Muslim girls cover their body and hair.

.BilaNikmatDuniaMenjelang.

.Wordless Wednesday.

.ASAL?.

.pfft.

.Papa.

.MyFaveSongEver.

.150juta.

.hurt.

.That Boy.Geu Namja.

.MTS.

.WhatIsOnEgyptians'MindsActually?.

.ThisLoveThisHate.

.innertalk.

.yiruma - river flows in you piano cover.

.What I Heard Egyptian Talked about me.

.Saya Nak Join Bloglist Andyhowtt.

.LAI LAI LAI.Tengok FBTV.RAACUUN

.LYNAS.

.pantaiPCB.

.invi.

.argh.

.newLook.

.internmedEXAM.

.2heart.

.bleed?.

.hot.hot.

.heartheart.

.blogpress.

.kosong.

.habit.

.HbToMe.

.ComeBack.

.sucks.

.ExamIsOver.

.♥.

.twitter?.

.back again.FTW.

.death.

.hyeKawan2.

.pengisyhtiharan.

.ItsSavingTime.

.idontthinkitsamishap.

.update.

.untitled.

.kegemukan.*Eh?*

.im back!.

.HI.

.argh!sorry.

.cover.

formspring.me

.bsb.

.yay yay yay.

.Apekah.

.OkOk.

.tagged?.

.HappyBelatedBirthdayToMe.

.oohoooiii.gaya m.daud kilau.

.kegemukan.Eh?

.sigh.